Things Get Worse Before They Get Better

So... where have you been looking for peace? (or maybe you call it happiness...)

I've seen you buy those packages at the store.
I know about that bottle hidden in your drawer.
And you... you think it's buried between the legs of a multitude of lovers.
Have you found anything yet, in the fridge, under that cellophane cover?
Did you check your briefcase just one more time?
I'm sure you, sir, will find it after you snort just one more line...

Tell me, what does it feel like when you sit too long and that black hole gets too close? Does it make your life feel meaningless and incomplete? Do you feel like there's something more you should be doing, but not a clue as to what? Maybe you feel sad and lonely, like the darkness will swallow you whole. Do questions you dare not answer creep into your mind? Who Am I? Why Am I here? What is life really about?

Heart races.

Anxiety rattles your chest.

Quick! Go back to sleep before it pulls you in too deep!

Flip through the channels and go back into mindless mode.
Watch someone else's fake reality nicely unfold.

Tsk!Tsk! Not so quick!
I'm not going to leave this time...
I'm staying.
This is IT.

You've kept me quiet
For far too long
What you are about to learn is
I AM big. I AM strong.

I have a desire
That needs to be born
I have a purpose to be fulfilled
Consider yourself warned

I will break you
Make you crumble to your knees
I will make you forget who you are
And about your pursuit of greed

No longer will you be able to point your finger
Without noticing three more pointing back at you
YOU are the cause of your own suffering...
How's that for a new point of view?

Take a look at your life
The one you so carefully constructed
The one built on lies and sick stories....
Messed up, isn't it?

Let go of all you know
And let's go for a ride
I promise I'll bring you back
But you won't be the same inside

Let's start by losing the logic
Go ahead, take it off
And those five senses of yours...
Find the button and press stop

Where I'm taking you
Time and space do not exist
Where I'm taking you
You will merge with All That Is

But before I can do that
You have to let the pain come
It's going to be big
And you are going to come undone

It will rip your heart open
And crush your bones
Shhh... there...there...
You are not alone

Each tear that falls
Is my greatest gift
I'll collect them all
For you to sip

Salt water heals
And purifies the deepest of hurts
It forgives and loves
The worst of the worst

Tears cleanse the eyes
So you can properly see
What has always been in front of you
And all you were truly meant to be

You are greatness. Yes, it's true.
That which you have
been looking for
Is... you

And those situations
And circumstances from the past,
Those were merely experiences–
Not meant to last

You've held on to them
For far too long
Let them go now
There is no right or wrong

Exhale... Today is your birthday.
Isn't wonderful to be truly born?
You're a clean slate
Nothing tattered, nothing torn

The pen is in your hand
Write what needs to be written
But wait, before you do,
Something is missing...

The time has now come
to merge with The One
Shhh...

Ecstasy...

Bliss...

PURE LOVE. 

Why have a body when one can be soooo e x p a n d e d...

Time is up.
Back to earth you have landed.


Don't be upset
You've done nothing wrong
There's work to be done here
You can't stay out there too long

Try not to get attached to that moment
It was just another experience
It's not meant to distract you
From what needs to be taken serious

The gifts and talents
Unique to only you
Must be fully expressed
Shared and nurtured, too

Only you can fulfill your role
It fits you just right
But if you get too comfortable
Even that will feel too tight

Nothing in this life
Is meant for you to hold
So live with your hands wide open
And always let go.

When darkness comes now
You will understand
It is meant to refine you
And soften your hands

You have opened up the heart
And expanded the mind
Now nurture the body
And leave the past behind

You create your future
With your thoughts, words and actions
Be it for the highest and greatest good for all
Focused with intention and full of passion

Now you are AWAKE
Connected to everything
Higher consciousness affects the whole

So
 
lift
       
your
             
voice
                    
and
                            
sing.

Return to the Ocean My Friend

 Today my husband and I received news that a friend of ours died suddenly of a heart attack this morning. He was 36 years old and left behind a wife and two small children. I trust what has happened, but it saddens me just the same. Only love can heal this wound for the Hookey family.

Ocean

Life is mysterious
Everyday shows
A new meaning
Sometimes
I get so confused
And things seem
So muddled

It's not until
The tide has rolled in
And receded back
From the shore
That I can see
The bits of debris
That explain
Why life
Has happened
The way
It has

Sometimes
I am anxious
Too curious
Too impatient
To wait and see
So I plunge
Into the wave
That surrounds me

Even with a mask
And snorkel
All I see
Is a large
cloud of clutter
It's dark
And dirty

A million
Particles everywhere
Yet I can be
So determined
To find answers
That I waste
Precious energy
Trying to find
My way through
The murkiness
That has now
Turned into
Pettiness

Not until
I am forced
To shore by
The strong thrust
Of a wave
And the water
Is too choppy
To venture
Into Again
Will I sit
And wait

And like always
The debris
Collects
In the sand
And I am
Quickly reminded
Whether it's a
Beautiful shell
From the sea
Or a gray
Skeleton of
A fish

I remain
Not only
Living
But a part
Of the Universe